Dad notices me for the first time, and he picks me up and kisses my cheek and
leaves it wet, and his eyes are red and he tells me happy birthday.
I eat cereal at the island and mom and dad sing to me and give me presents But
their eyes are focused outside all the time and they keep checking their phones
and the whole morning feels like waiting for something.
Our house inside is like it always is, plastic curtains and plastic flowers and
smelling like cinnamon candles, but it's dark in here and dark outside.
Finally mom and dad's phones buzz and
they say we are going outside to look around because it's safe now.
Dad puts my yellow raincoat on me and
he puts me on his shoulders because there are maybe still wires and we go outside.
It smells like the ocean more than normal And a little like burning and
like something else too, which is like leaves in fall but
sweeter than that, in a way that makes my stomach hurt.
The bats are gone from the doorway and so are both lion hats and one lion.
People are coming out of their houses all at once now,
touching the paint on the front of their houses that is puffy and
has a dark line on it that is higher than my head.
The people are standing and
blinking in the places where lawn furniture used to be.
All the houses on our street are normal, mostly, but then we turn the corner and
there is a deck that is just sticks, and
steps leading down to basements where black water is sitting.
A lady with a pink sweatshirt on sits on a cracked tree with her hands on her cheeks,
looking out with nothing in her face.